Saturday, May 28, 2005
The little girl that was lost somewhere.
Sometimes, I feel like a little girl who's hands got let go and lost in the crowd. When the world seems so busy to stop by for me and I have to face every problem by myself, using my knowledge and my disgression to solve it and to make my way through.
Recently, I have experienced the evil-ness of this world. You may think this is how the world make up, and perhaps I'm just exaggerating it. But I will you that they are enough to let me feel how blessed and protected I am in many areas of my life. Even a short while of sitting in front of the television, watching news, makes my heart cry. To know how blessed I am, to live in Singapore, with no worries of lodging, food and whatnot, compared to the people living in the same country, yet struggling to survive every minute.
Yet these are also problems that I gained insights from. That I have to tackle them and not always living in the world of goodness because evil is always living out there. I will just have to grow up with it, yet not get influenced by it. I can only survive by His Grace that can only be gained through humility.
But again, there is still this little girl in me who yearns very much to be a silly little girl at times. To be kissed at the forehead and tugged into bed by brother, sharing secrets and pillow fights with sister. But they are all beyond my reach. I have a brother whom I love very much yet we do not share the same blood, and a sister who is married and does not do all this with me anymore. In all, I am but a lonely child. But seeing brother today totally brightens up my day. It is just that kind of relieve me and Shuping shares.
I think it is time for me to turn in, especially that I am mugging even harder than before for my Chinese! >.<
maoed.]
at 11:44 PM
+++His child.
jiayi; jean. 060488// hope// sound ministry// neb1// grace's sheep// phs// 5compassion// basketball//
+++smiles.
Him// simpsonx// shuping// red.black.white// eight// violin// guitar// disney// animals// kids// adidas// bottoms// horror::thrillers// watermelon// peach// mango// tomato// tea// fish// white chocs// marshmellows// shopping// friendships
+++frowns.
noise// dirtiness// chili// pork// snake// comedies// thunders// lightnings//
+++memories.
chalet//
courageous camp//
devotees//
devotees`bbq//
faith camp//
firework`04//
foundation camp//
life in the kingdom//
neb//
phs`03//
phs'04//
seventeen//
siMpsOnx//
student conference//
the ultimate dare//
+++books.
a love worth giving// a woman's answer to anger// every young woman's battle// helping others without hurting yourself// journeys of friendship//
if you want to walk on water, you've got to get out of the boat// in the grip of grace// love beyond reason// loving God with all your mind// recapture the world//
the friendship's of women// traveling light// wild at heart// words that hurt words that heal//
